What a tiring night
Happy B'day to me!!
Graduation of batch 02/2010
Failing the test
Someone, anyone, please help me!!!Elaine why you again!
Another one (irritating person)
There's this girl in my course named Elaine that I'm really starting to hate. Initially I thought she's a good target to make friend with but after knowing her, I wished I didn't get too close to her. She's selfish and only think about herself. Likes to rely on other people. I felt like I need to take care of her. I have never liked taking care of people, especially people like her. She reminded me of Janice. Sometimes I felt she doesn't have her own mind to think of. Does she always have to follow others? Maybe I'm too independent that her action put me off. Can I say she's also a miser or particular person? I only heard people complained mobile operators overcharge, I have never heard of people complaining of public transport overcharge. She told me that we have to check our EZ link card for the public transport that we taken because sometimes they overcharge us. Seriously every thing gone computerize/electronic. Even if it overcharge us by few cents or few dollars, there's no way we can detect unless we keep a record of it or go to the nearest machine to check on our last trip fares. But how many people do that? I dare to bet not many.
Today we were supposed to have physical training but in the end we were just doing warm up. During one of the warm up exercises, we had to do jumping-jack. All of us were doing it except for her. Its not like she had any medical history or her legs or knees cant make it. But she just simply stand there while the rest of us doing dutifully. I just can't understand since she claimed she's on a diet, so why isn't she trying to do all these exercises? Not only that, a person who claimed to be on diet, how can she be eating during tea breaks? Everyone knows that if you truely wants to slim down, you have to do lots of exercises and cut down all tea breaks and other snacks except for breakfast, lunch and/or dinner.
I pray that I will not be in the same team as her. I have enough of not mature thinking and only think of oneself person. I have blacklisted her. So Elaine please don't come looking for me. I'm not your nanny.
How Long did I stop again?
Today My Mom B'day
Piss off with my dad
I was rather piss off with my dad today. He called me in the morning while I'm busy working. I rejected his calls twice. When I finally have the time to called back, he doesn't pick up his phone. This is maddening. Because I thought the ICA person called again. Was thinking why the hell he didn't tell them to call me at my handphone. He called me again after lunch and I was really busy. He always called at the wrong timing when I'm serving a customer. This time I didn't bothered to called back. When I reached home, I vented my frustration on my mom.
When my dad finally came home, I asked him why he keeps calling me at work. He actually reply that he didn't. What the hell?!! He did called and when I rejected his first call, he immediately called the second time. How can he said he didn't or probably accidentally keyed the wrong number. Twice!!!! and what's more immediately made the second call. How can that be accidental. Damn, really pissed with him. He better not ruin my day tomorrow. I really hated it when people called me when I'm busy with work.
Changing job
Today is the fifth day I worked as service co-ordinator. This job SUCKS BIG TIME!!! I have to do OT everyday, even on sat. Frankly speaking, I do not mind doing OT on weekdays, but please not on weekend!!! Initially when they told me I have to do OT, I seriously thought its like doing 3-4 days a week. But just staying with this company for 5 days, I can say its definitely everyday I have to do OT. There wasn't even once I CAN go home early. Luckily yesterday, I finally received ICA call and they offered me ICA spec job.
To compare, of cos government job is better than the current job I'm doing. At least I could knock off on time, though I have to do shift work. Most important, I can play badminton with my friends again, though not in regular basis. By right, under this current company, I should be able to play badminton. But with OT, I couldn't make it for the afternoon session at all.
Service Coordinator
Gathering
I have not seen my dear friend Christ for a very long time. Ever since she and felicia were together, she seem so withdrawn and looks tired. But I guess lately something happened between the 2 of them cos felicia likes to stick with Christ all the time, but I do not see her last night when we met. Wanted to ask her but since she was not willing to say anything out, then we did not force her. But I don't know if I should asked her when I meet her again next tue. We agreed to go gym together after her work.
It's kind of awkward when me and xiao yan met her cos we don't know what to say to her. It's really been a long time since we met each other. Somehow I managed to talk some crap and that's how 1 hour has passed. When I really couldn't find another words to say, we had to find Jean to help us out. Luckily Jean agreed to come out despite her tight schedule. It was only then that the awkward situation was neutralize. But it came with a price on my head. I really do not want to talk about my crash I had a few weeks back. But seeing that we had nothing much to talk about, I had to come out clean. That was something I hope it will not happen again.
Chris said I and her were alike. But I do not agreed. How were we alike? I feel she's more interactive than I am. Though I have to admit that in the past few years, she did really changed a lot.
Chris are you looking at my blog? What I wanted to say is no matter what happen in the past, we are still friends, if you still consider us as your friends. If you have any problem, any problem at all, we hope to be there for you. We somehow felt that there's something wrong between you and felicia. If you really do not want to talk about it, that's fine. But always remember, we are always here for you.
Merry Christmas 2009
First, MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of u bloggers. Its been fun last night. I was 1 hr late because I don't want to be puncture as always when they were always late. But I really didn't want to go there that late. My fault for fussing what clothes to wear. Luckily I wore long pants. Initially I wanted to wear bermudas because I thought we were just going to "c u" only. In the end there was a small communication breakdown. 2 of my friends went to "play" when we have agreed to meet at c u. Linus was a little angry because Margaret has book a table for us at c u and now the girls were at play. We went over to look for them and I really regret paying that $15 cos we just stayed for 5 mins and off we went over to get red dot chop cos its free entry before 10.30pm. After getting that chop we went back to c u again since we had a table for us, we must at least stayed there for a while.
I was a little sad when I overheard Margaret will be joining her other friends at another club, maybe after countdown. I was hoping she would joined us at red dot. I'm quite surprised that she didn't sing much last night when I was hoping to sing a duet with her. But Linus got to sing with her. So envied. It was actually boring when you just sat around doing nothing but hearing other people sing.
Finally it was time we went over to red dot. So many people, so messy, so happening. Everyone was high. Well who wouldn't be with this crowd. Had to dance. Was forced to dance. I can't be just standing there like a block of wood. It was fun, really. But still, dancing is not my forte. When Jenny and San had to leave, I just followed them out since I don't know anyone there. Why should I continued to stay behind? Went back to c u to find Linus and gang. I was surprised Margaret was still around because she did said she wanted to go another place with her other group of friends. Well I guessed someone must have persuaded her to stay behind. But she was already drunk by then.
Linus, for the very first time, she told me a lot of things about herself and how unhappy she was. I don't know what to say to her. I'm lost for words. Wanted to hug her but somehow I think its weird to do that. I promised her I won't tell anybody and I will. Linus if you are looking at this blog, then I'm telling you to get over it and do something else. Like Margaret, I can listened to your complains and others stuffs but don't repeat it over and over again. If you are truely listening to our advise, then GET OVER IT!!! Stop all those nightmares you have. If you wanted to change, you Can change. Its a matter of letting it go. Look at me, I don't know that many people as you have. You have a few relationships which I do not. You even have a best friend whom you can confide with but I absolutely have no one to talk to. When I'm mad, crazy or feeling a little low, or even feeling angry or frustrated, there's no one whom I can confide in or trusted. Now thinking about it, I don't have a "real/true friend" at all. Who is more unfortunate? Me or you? But a person like myself, so lonely and often being forgotten by people, I still pressed on to live a dull, uninteresting life. If you think your life sucks, then go do some volunteering work. Maybe thro' volunteering works, you'll see life's in a different way. The feeling and thinking you have right now, will fade away when you truely realise, is nothing compared to those more unfortunate people. I have get on with my life, with little support around me. I'm sure you CAN do better.
I'm weird. I think I am. You guys can talk and can talk with anybody. But I'm so~ not into those topics you guys talked about. Well I'm an otaku person. For a otaku person, maybe they or I might as well say its me who likes animes, online games and cosplay stuffs.
What a boring night
Last night went drinking with my friends at Bliss. That place is wonderful. Nice food and not too expensive drinks. Talk a lot but mostly they understand what they were talking about. I'm always out of the topic cos don't know what to say.
I should have gone home after that. Really should have. But I was hoping to see margaret again. It is only then I get to know she usually have this habit that if she drinks one night, the very next day she will rest the whole day. Out of my expectation. I thought she is that kind when people ask her out for drinks, she will complied to it. What's more it's saturday night!! So sad I didn't get to see her at all cos she has drunk the night before and I think she got work today. If I'm not wrong, I think she's a property agent, from the hearing that I heard.
We went to "c u" after Bliss. Really not the same without margaret there. Also found out that Tong new girlfriend is Joice. Oh my Gosh!!! That bad attitude girl?!! I really doesn't like her. I feel Tong deserve someone better. But it seems like Tong likes girl with an attitude (problem). "Tong wake up! I know you broke off with your ex recently but getting another this soon..... and what's more that bad attitude...... come on. If I could, I would really like to slap your face".
I don't know if I'm thinking too much. Guess I might be thinking too much. Too much booze. When I first met her, she just suddenly gave me a kiss on my cheek. I was like WTF, I don't even like you at all. When I saw her last night, kept looking over at my table, cos all my friends were outside smoking, except for me, alone at the table. Was thinking then, did she like me when we first met? But I'm a quiet and introvert person. No one gives me a shit except when they truely knows me, as who I really am. I don't express myself out loud. Never did. Anyway its impossible between us. Yes, impossible. She's just not my cup of tea. Sorry girl.
Disappointed
I was a little disappointed that margaret didn't came over to tokami. She preffered c u and stayed there. Anyway we didn't stayed long there either and went over to find her. As my friend was asking me if I have have plans for christmas, I of course told her 'NO'. Then she suggested that lets have BBQ. of course I have no problem with that but the problem is where to BBQ. She said maybe all of us can go to margaret condo to do just that.
I was really surprised that margaret was living in condo. I thought like all of us, she lived in HDB flat. Anyway guess I'm not really into her then.
New keyboard, new cargo shorts, new card reader
Bad hair cut
Finally decided to go for a hair cut. Wanted to go TPY onikawa to cut for a latest jap hairstyle but I decided to go to my neighborhood one, the one that I frequent the most. I really hated what she done to my hair. My fringe was chopped very short. Do you know how long it takes me to keep this long!! Regret choosing neighborhood over onikawa. Why AMK branch must shut down? :(
I didn't deliberately think of Margaret. But somehow I did.
Running
Today I started running again. I always had this bad habit. When I started to run, I can only manage to run for a few weeks then I stopped totally. When I suddenly have the urged to start again, I bet this time I will be repeating the pattern. Run, stop, run, stop. Just don't have the determination. Maybe I needed some goal, a target to make me run forever. Well too bad I just don't have any, though I wanted to get rid of my tummy.
I tried to picture a goal for me to finish my run this morning. I targeted to at least continue to run one round without stopping and I did. So I challenged myself for the second round but this time I failed. Nevertheless, I needed to condition myself for one week. Actually I planned to run later in the evening again but too lazy. Hope my legs don't ache too much tomorrow.
I'm thinking of her again. But today is slightly better. I was in control of myself. I didn't really think of her the whole day, like yesterday. Should I be proud of myself? But I'm still thinking where is she now. At some pub or at home? Margaret, are you thinking of me too?
Feeling for magaret
. Not really everyday. 
. Frankly speaking, I was hoping to sing a duet song with her, lol~
. But like I said she didn't sing much and therefore I didn't get to sing any songs with her. She played pool very well. Think at least better than me. That was another side of her I got to see last night. The bar closed at 2am and we decided to go to "c u" pub. 
Do I love her? Seriously I don't know. I just know I'm thinking of her today, the whole day. I feel like talking this to someone, anyone. No, not anyone. I'm a insecure person. I just don't trust anyone at all. But I'm about to burst. I needed to express out and that's why I needed to write this in my blog. To express myself....Don't force Me
31 Dec 2007, I went out to celebrate new year with 2 friends. There's some angry moment while waiting for them to "appear" in front of me but I'm not going to elaborate the matter. After watching fireworks, we found a place to sit and enjoy our drinks. It is only then this friend, angela starts to question about my "preferences". Before she could finish her question, I kept interrupting her as I do not wish to answer. That was real funny the way I tried to stop her from continuing asking me question.
After many tries, she finally confirm what she wanted to find out from me, though all this time I have never truely admitted to her. I feel that why want to force people to say something which they don't feel like telling? People do have some secret they sometimes want to keep and not saying out loud. What's more we are not that close. I only met her 3-4 times.
She really scare me with the question.
Mad at Janice
How long I didn't write my blog. I'm just plain lazy to log in. Years pass by really fast and now its 2008!
Another 2 more weeks I'm flying to wuhan to see panmei concert. Initially I was ready to go but now..... I'm supposed to go with Janice. She said she can come out 2k for the trip. But today when I called her to return my money for air ticket and concert ticket, she finally admitted that she doesn't have what she claimed to have that much money to spend. I was really mad at her for not being honest. Janice always like to act she can afford but in reality, she can't. Why is she always like that. I will not look down on her if she's being honest. Really in deep shit to know her as "friend". Now all my friends are afraid that she may not have enough to spend when she's in china and may even borrow more money from me. I have decided not to lend her any if that really happens. Guess I have to stay away from her as much as possible when I come back from wuhan trip.
Janice if you happen to see my blog, then let me give you advice. If you do not have what it takes, then please don't act as though you have it. You are ruining our friendship 
Hate Ops Job
I was posted from one unit to another because I requested it. Never to think that I'll be in S3 branch doing ops job. I really hated what I'm doing now. Practically I'm in charge of doing IPPT and range. Just doing these 2, already makes my head BIG.
I'm going to give myself a few months to half a year to try this out. If I can't cope, I definitely would like to request going somewhere else. Let's hope my boss would allow when the time comes. Now I know why my upper study told me she always have to do OT and even have to go back to work on a saturday.
This job really sucks like hell.
2nd Car Accident
Had a car accident yesterday morning. What bad luck. I had washed my car in the morning. My mom wanted me to bring her to her yoga class as it was raining then. I wasn't keen in driving but had to do so since its not like everyday I drive her around. I had a bad feeling but couldn't know what will happen.
As I was driving along thomson road, a taxi in front of me suddenly brake. In response, I too jammed my brake but it was already too late and I crashed into the taxi's bumper. After exchanging our particulars, we headed home. Think my mom called my dad up and told him about the accident. When my dad came home, he told me my headlight were on. I suddenly remembered I did switched on my headlight when I was driving in the rain and did I forget to switch it off? Gosh, I hurried down to my car and know what??? My engine can't start due to low battery. Damn! One bad luck after another. All my mood was ruined.
I was thinking...... if my mom had not asked me to bring her to her class, I wouldn't have met with such an accident. Lucky no one was hurt. Maybe I shouldn't dwell on it so much. It's actually a blessing in disguise..... no?
Words from Jos
Finally waited jos replied email back to me but with a bad news. Her grandma has past away and she will be back to attend the funeral. She has always been very close to her. I don't know how hard has jos cried but I hope she's alright and hopefully her boss allow her to take leave to come back to singapore. I'm not good with words, so hope I can ease her sadness away when I see her.
Jos take care, ok. No matter what happen, I'm always here for you.
S.H.E 2007 Promo
Yes, s.h.e came last weekend to promote their latest album "play". Boy was I dead tire. Beside waking early to go to work, I have to wake up early in the weekends just to queue up. I really hate this generation (young) fans. They always like to queue overnight. Because of these group of people, it also makes others to follow the same. By the time I got to the event location, it was already a long queue.
Last sat "fun party concert" started around 8pm but I was there, queuing up at 9.10am. I knew by the time I got there, the queue would be long. Still I was hoping it wasn't that lonnnnnnng. The weather wasn't kind to the fans too. It rained in the afternoon, making impossible for me to sit on the floor. Finally waiting for a few hours, a friend's friend arrived with ground sheet and I'm glad to be able to sit again. My legs were tired. Around 7+pm, we were let into the hall. The fans were high as usual when the concert started. I too enjoyed the whole show.
I knew after the concert, some fans were going to the next event location which s.h.e will only appeared the following day. My friends and I were too tire and decided to head there the following early morning. Even though we went half an hour earlier than the previous day, the queue was still long. By the time we managed to squeeze into the veune, we were too far back to see the stage. All we saw were heads and hands. At least I'm happy to shake selina and ella's hand. Hebe did not raised her hand to handshake mine. Well I know she's cool but still I was hoping to have a handshake with her.
I really like s.h.e a lot. GO S.H.E! Go ella and hebe.